Posted in Shutterbug Blues, Verses

Sengsara

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“In the Meadow” – Cebu, 12 November 2017

road trip:
urban tour
city-bound
but i
yearn
for the
seaside
with the
cold salt
breezes
of what
passes for
winter
wafting over
my skin.

a face
burned onto
the surface
of my
mind
now indelible
like a
scar
and i
tell myself
two thousand
or so
kilometres
isn’t so
far away
but what
excuse
and what
reason
do i
have
to go
without me
looking like
a fool?

grimly steeling
myself
as the
car
meanders down
the highway
into a
city
grimy and
grey
and my
heart
withers within.

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Posted in Art and About, Verses

This Point of No Return

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“Lesson to a Thug” – Walter Molino, published c. 1960s

cutting
all ties
to a
past
best left
forgotten:
ending the
nightmares
sans regrets.

erasing
names and
numbers,
the addresses
never
to be
written to
ever again;
letters
torn and
torched,
discs and
vinyls
tossed out
and broken,
pictures
erased from
drives
physical and
virtual and
mental.

driving out
the demons
the nightmares
that plagued
me
making this
parting
of ways
final.

Posted in Shutterbug Blues, Verses

Penerangan

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“A Light in the Darkness” – Muntinlupa, 15 December 2017

light a
candle
in the
darkness
of this
winter night
and draw
to the
warmth
those who
seek
a little
love
a little
tenderness
in a
world
gone cold
and blank
and sad
and unfeeling.

reach out
to the
lonely
and those
who seem
to have
lost
their way
and guide
them
to safety
to succour
to shelter.

give
of yourself
like a
candle
gives off
gives out
light
and life
for it
is in
giving
that we
receive
and it
is in
loving
that we
find love
in a
world
made dark
by hate.

Posted in Shutterbug Blues, Verses

Verijdeling

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“Snail’s Pace” – Cebu, 11 November 2017

why
does time
have to
move
so slowly:
a wearying
tedium
of seconds
and minutes
and hours
ticking by;
grains
of sand
trickling
from one
bulb
to another.

pacing
across the
floor,
tugging my
hair
to allay
my qualms –
these jitters
that make
my hands
shake
my pulse
race;
so impatient.

sighing
at the
ponderous
pace of
the hands
across the
face,
and i
feel
the despair
the agony
of waiting
and dreading
that it
might all
be in
vain.

Posted in An Exercise in Prose, Shutterbug Blues

Lessons Learned from a Year Gone By

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“Tools of the Trade” – Makati, 29 December 2017

I go on record as saying that 2017 was one hell of a topsy-turvy year on so many levels. It was, to be perfectly honest, a time when old notions were shattered and I felt like I was left reeling from the impact. Still, a rather interesting year all around.

Which brings us to these: the life lessons I picked up at various points in 2017. We are now two weeks into the new year, but perhaps these can serve as a starting point for something new for many of us.

  1. What is for you will never pass you by  If you’re meant to have something, you’re going to end up getting it regardless of what may happen. In my case, it was an assignment that dropped into my lap from out of the blue. In the weeks prior to the assignment itself, there were a number of setbacks and I was pretty sure I wasn’t going to go where I wanted to go. Fortunately, things fell into place almost at the very last minute; so there.
  2. It ALWAYS pays to be kind. And cheerful. And grateful – regardless of what some spoilt millenials say  Also: remember that there are words like “please,” and “thank you.” Use them. You don’t have to be a b*tch to people to get the results that you want. Remember that old saw about catching more flies with honey than with vinegar? Principle applies here. Which brings us to…
  3. A sincere smile trumps resting b*tch face EVERY SINGLE TIME – even if said b*tch face is perfectly made up  I don’t get why many younger people insist on putting on a poker face or, worse, a full-on scowl when dealing with people. Also, I guess cosmetic manufacturers are making a killing from younger women who insist on plastering their faces up with tons of make-up – when, in truth, they don’t really need the stuff. God.
  4. Give up those things – or people – who make your life toxic  Even if you’ve known them for years, if these people have caused you nothing but pain or grief, drop them now. Don’t torture yourself with their presence. Or their caustic remarks about you. Or the way they sneer at you behind your back. You deserve a life unencumbered by toxicity. Drop them, end of story.
  5. Knowing a different language (or several) is a great ice breaker when on assignment here and abroad  Also, gravitate towards people who share interests with you – always a good thing.
  6. Always keep an open mind…and an open heart as you never know who you’re going to meet  Enough said.
  7. Just accept every assignment you are given and learn from it  Don’t be picky about your assignments. Especially in a field like mine, you just go where you’re asked to go and do what you’re asked to do. If it feels like an imperial pain at first, just get it over and done with. You’ll realise it would all be worth it in the long run.
  8. Make some goodbyes permanent  Refer to Item #4. Delete them from your social media. Stop following them on social media. Stop hanging out with them. FORGET THEM.
  9. Stay curious AND stay focused  Always be willing to learn and to be exposed to new experiences. You’ll come away richer in terms of wisdom and, if you’re lucky, wealth.
  10. Never forget to pray  Always thank the Higher Power for everything you get – good and bad. Always be grateful. Get down on your knees and ask for help whenever necessary; you’re only human – and there is only so much you can do.

Happy New Year, everyone. I hope it turns out to be a spectacular one for all of us.

Posted in Shutterbug Blues, Verses

Awal

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“Light the Night” – Muntinlupa, 01 January 2018

the sky
blooms
with blossoms
of fire
lighting
up the
night
and every
mortal eye
bedazzled
and awed.

one year
dies
and another
born
and we
put our
heartaches
and hurts
and woes
to the
torch:
burnt offering
for hope
and peace
and joy.

and we
raise
our glasses
and sing
dirges
to the
year
that was
and whisper
prayers
for the
year
that comes
and face
the dawn
bravely.

Posted in Shutterbug Blues, Verses

Kelepasan

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“Caged Light” – Alabang, 16 December 2017

this
was the
year
when i
stepped
out of
the cage
that held
me
for so
long.

dropped
all those
who let
me down,
let go
of the
things
that held
me down,
got rid
of the
things
that got
all toxic
and dark
and grim;
slammed
the door
in the
face
of the
past
and locked
it in
forever
and threw
away
the key.

tested
my wings
and took
flight –
and it
feels
so good.